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Good bye all over again

Dear meglimir,

You're in the hospital. Your husband says it may be the end. Some time ago, you yourself said that you were ready, that if it was time, you were at a point where you had done everything you wanted. That scared me. I was incredibly threatened by your comment. I wanted to drop everything and drive down and shake you with my bare hands to convince you that it wasn't time yet. But it was me who wasn't ready. I didn't want to let you go. I still don't, but I'm not scared anymore. You said you were ready. I'll take you at your word and let you go if you want to. I'm still kinda hoping you don't, but...you know...

I remember Busch Gardens last year. Pushing you around the park in the wheelchair. Thanking you for refusing to let me treat you like a piece of furniture, when I wanted to run off and see a tchotchke shop. When we got to go round the Roman Falls three times because of the handicap treatment, you commented that cancer was good for some things at least. I wryly asked you "It's not worth it, tho, is it?"

I'm going to come down to Richmond and see you on Saturday. I'll call sammyd tomorrow night and get directions to the hospital. I'll find something thoughtful to do, or bring, and hopefully get the chance to say goodbye if it was time.

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